Time after time, I find myself surrounded by great opportunities. I ask myself, "Who am I that I should be worthy of these?" These are not only great opportunities, not only wonderful, but also rare chances, honourable and distinguished. They oftenly bring me to the highest peaks in my life. Sadly, that’s not it oftenly ends. There are also moments - lots of them - that after the highest peaks come the deepest falls.

Every time, like tonight, at the end of yet another honourable, distinguished, successful event, I find myself overwhelmed by the success: a sigh of relief, a sense of disbelief, but also a sense of gratitude. Thank you God, for giving me this chance. Thank you for even helping me, guiding me all the way to its end and fulfillment. Thank you for the innumerable things I cannot even enlist fully and perfectly.

In such moments, at every end of relief-disbelief-gratitude, I could just do nothing else but sit in astonishment at how much God can use me. Indeed, He uses broken vessels. I find myself over and again asking, "Who am I Lord, that I should be worthy of this?" Nevertheless, I thank You. I try my best to get to the bottom of the valley after this peak.

Indeed, it is in receiving well that God can use a broken vessel like me that I would be able to grow even more, to hold myself from falling from the peak to the pit. Yes, that’s it! One root of the fall is my unability to accept that God can actually use me despite my falling short of His standard. I need to accept it well and be grateful about that.

Thank you God, for using a broken vessel like me. It’s not about me. It’s about you. I’m not worhty of these great things, but it is through my unworthiness that Your greatness would be more perfectly revealed. Thank you.