These days I’ve been experiencing one of the greatest turmoil in my
life. My world, in a sense, has been turned upside down. I kind of lost
my grip. Many options are suddenly widely opened before me. Many
important decisions have to be made as to reorient myself to this new
reality. But how can I? The turmoil was just to great.

I usually
take a stroll in the village or browse bookstores or some pedestrian to
find relief from stress. Under worse conditions, I would blog or just
write anything, though it be just a sketch. But in even worse
conditions, il faut parler. I need to talk. But to whom?

I’m so
glad to have nice friends - yes it’s true, friends are something you
don’t count by the number but by the quality of the relationship - that
would spare hours of their time, listening to my complaints and doubts,
helping me finding again my grip and regaining my step. It’s a very
nice thing to have them to chat with, to converse in a serious manner.
One of them is one fine man with an astonishing mind. He’s right in
saying that prayer is of the utmost importance, that it might be just
the time to step back and re-ponder everything altogether, and that
maybe I just have to enjoy things - my life, all I’ve achieved, all
that’s before me … in other words, to rejoice. Hmmm … those 3
things sound so simple yet so hard for me both to find and to do.

This
process is quite tedious … sometimes it’s even devastating … tiring
… it consumes my thoughts even during this long holiday … what an
unfortunate time to be bothered by such a thought!

Well, I must finally decide. And indeed decided have I.

Thanks to my friends, who have been a great channel of relief for me, I can now regain my stature.

Have rest, my soul

Pals, your prayers would be of the utmost value to me. Thanks in advance